This blog is my thoughts, feelings, and opinions about the world and life around me and you. I see the world through a Christian's eyes and this is how I write about it. Whether it be criticism or praise, I am very direct about what I see as was Christ himself. Its time that I share what I have to say with whoever would like to listen. Enjoy what you read and I welcome anything you have to say about it. In Christ

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Learning The Lessons in Life

So I have said many times that God gives you the test first and the lesson later. This can not be more true then what I have gone through in my life currently. I look back on the last year, almost exactly a year, and see how much I have actually failed in what God was trying to show me. However, like a phoenix rises from the flame, God is really using all of the trials and failures I have endured to teach me something. Something that is incredibly invaluable and will prepare me for the future. I have no problem saying that I screwed up in my last relationship. I fell in love with having a relationship and not with the person in it or most importantly with how God could bless it. Who knows, maybe if things would have been more maturely dealt with, it would be different. However, I am no longer looking at the would have/ could have aspects of my life. I truly feel that God wants me to press forward, wherever that may be to.

I thought I learned my lesson back in December/ January of this year, but I didn't. I still let my infatuation get a hold of me, let someone get into my head that had no place there, and let my emotions get ahead of me. The lesson that I learned is that God has a plan. I know it seems like you may already know this but think about it for a second. GOD has a plan for ME. Six words that should echo through your head so much that you never forget it. The creator/ savior/ Lord/ master of everything on this Earth or beyond it, is thinking about what is going to happen in my life. That is the most amazing thing that I have ever heard. Almost unbelievable, almost.

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May 17, 2010

So I started this post a while ago and decided to take some time off from it and gain some perspective in my own life before I continued something that my life at the time could benefit. Over the last 6 months or so I have learned a lot about relationships, myself and more importantly...God and his timing. Even though things in my life seemed to crumble and I did not think things were going as I was hoping them to...God had a plan and it was a plan, just as Jeremiah 29:11 says, to "prosper me, not to harm me, and to give me a hope and a future". Whatever goes through my life, makes me stronger as a Christian man. However I also learned that you have to LEARN from the circumstances in your life or you are doomed to repeat the mistakes you have already made.

So as I begin a new journey in my life...not a new chapter a whole new book that is not only Christ centered, but most importantly Christ driven, I reflect upon what has made me the man I am today. The mistakes that I have made and the decisions that have come to pass, good and bad, have molded me to the man I am today. God did not make us infallible beings, which he definitely could have. He could have made Adam perfect in ever way and unable to sin. He CHOSE to give us free will and let that be the factor of eternal life with Him in heaven. We all sin. We are not perfect. Not you or me or even that girl/ guy that you have fallen head over heals for. We all fall short of the glory of God and are undeserving of his grace. BUT, his grace is given and we are as pure once again because of the blood that he shed. I want to caution you though. I have seen TOO many times that strong Christians repent of their sins and then forget about it. Feeling that it is no longer a struggle and they can go on with their loives almost have never doing it in the first place. I do not know the biblical evidence of why this is not the right way to go about repentance, but I do know that if you forget about the guilt and ill feeling of sin....you are more likely to sin in the future.

I want a wife, kids and be able to teach my kids the same Christian values that my dad has taught me. I want them t look at me when they have families of their own and just say "Thank you for being the example that I need". Notice that I did not say GOOD example. Just example. Because sometimes you learn best from someone that did it before you and can show the consequences of the actions without you ever committing the sin. This is a gift that our parents and older, mature friends can show us.

So I start my new journey, a journey that already has an ending and I can not wait to fil the pages with great decisions that are made and the lessons that are taught from the not so great decisions. I am a lucky man to have a Savior that no matter what, has his arms wide open for me to fall into.

Glory be to God. Amen.