F.E.A.R: Focused on Eternity And Regret

The title of this blog is something, honestly, I just made up. The scary part is that it didn't take long. I have been living my life in F.E.A.R. Well not the typical fear, such as fear of dying, heights, snakes, commitment, etc. I live in this different type. In which I focus on what is coming up, and what I already regret. This is going to change, something needs to change.

I need the people in my life to know who I really am. Unfortunately the person that knew me best chose not to be in my life at the time being. This I can and am handling. However, other than my family, a lot of people do not know me., I need you to know that I rarely do things on accident. I think throughly through my decisions and if it seems that I am impulsive, its because I have thought about it ahead of time and already made my decision if it ever came up. So stop with patronizing me and talking to me like I do not know how to live my life. I am a man of God, dedicated to only he who sacrificed for me. Also, when i say I rarely do things on accident, I mean everything I write about, say, do, think, believe, even the songs that you are listening to right now on my blog is for a reason. Each has had a considerable impact on my life. Whether it is what the artist is singing about, a memory I have while listening to it, or what I feel when I hear it. They all mean something to me, and if you just took a second and listened, you will know me. I am an artist. I love expressing myself through the music of others and the writing of myself. I talk. People know this. I will never apologize for defending my views, how I come across, and if someone decides the do not like me because of a shallow belief, then fine. Do I really want that kind of negativity in my life.

Its a change. Its a new decade. It is a new me. I am finally on my own. Living it up in Newport Beach, at a job I love. The physical things that people can see and recognize have changed. However, the most important things, such as my faith, character and overall confidence, the things people cannot see, has changed as well. If you have known me for a week or 23 years, I am a new person. Time to start over.

I have been recently inspired by someone to write more about who I am on this blog and what I truly feel about the world around us. The is what the blog is supposed to be, this is why i titled it "Life According to me". I actually feel sorry for those who doubt my ability. Those who think I can't be that person they need or become the man I know I will. It is those people that have lost out, not me. Christ reminds me of this in almost every teaching and parable written. He was doubted more and treated worse than I was. He rose above it in such a way, some of those who doubted him turned to admire him.

I am meeting new people, turning over a new leaf. So whatever you are listening to on my blog right now., Whether it be "Swing Life Away", "I am Not Who I Was", "Strong Tower", "Dancin in the Moonlight", "Fireflies", "Broken", "I'm Yours" or "Everything", they all describe my life in one way or another. That is why they are on this blog. Take note. There is no longer a need to ask if I am alright. I have Christ, how much better can I be.

In Christ