Lord, Give Me A Revelation!

As I was sitting in church last night, thinking about where God wants to lead me, I thought about what I have been doing the past 22 years. Everything I had wanted to do was becasue of my desire to accomplish it. The only thng that I can say was not this case was joing High Rollers, but even then, at first, I had some selfish ideas about it. I started to think about the trip to Michigan that I wanted to take so badly. To see my friends that were such a big part of my life and I haven't seen for almost 12 years. But most imporatntly, I wanted to get away. Get away from responsibility, from issues that I had created, just basically run away.

Then I started to think if God had a bigger plan in mind for me this summer. I asked myself about how He going to use me, and not how I was going to use Him! First time I had done that. It wa sthen that it hoit me. I was sitting in Rock Harbor worshipping a God that I was afraid to worship compeletly. I have my ministries yes, but have not completely given EVERYTHING to Christ so He can use me as he would like to. I made a decision there as I prayed. There is a camp for the High Rollers ministry this summer. It is a full week of hanging out with the kids, and honestly I was afraid. Afraid of spending a week with a group that although I love dearly, was so different then anything I have experienced. But you know what? I haver a feeling that is where God needs me, and after cancelling my trip to Michigan, I gave my 100% devotion to it. Not an easy decision and I was shaking with excitement, fear, and nervousness as I told the Young Life Staff members that I would go. But I feel completely at peace with going, and I know it is for the glory of God and not for my selfish reasons.

Another part of that night was accepting that I can be myself around everyone adn not have to worry about what they may or may not think of me. A friend of mine saiud today at lunch that, "You need to be Cory, just VCory, and God will bless you becasue of it". Although such a simple statement, he is competetly right. I am always myself but am always worried adn paranoide what others may say about me. The thing t remeber is that it does not matter what anyone on this Earth says about me, NO ONE! All that matters is that I am truly seeking God with my whole heart and that life is devoted to Him. All that matters is when I finally meet my Heavenly Father, he ill say "Well done, good and faithful servant..." (Matthew 25:21) This is the only opinion that matters, and remembering that is the key to survival in such a sinful world.

So here I sit, at my desk, opening my life for God to use me. In any way that He sees fit, and I am completely willing to do ANYTHING that he is calling me to do. God, give me a revlation, show me what to do. I am beside myself, and haven't got a clue.

"But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth." (Exodus 9:16)

Amen